1. broken so that the surface is fissured

2.  broken into pieces

3.  mentally disturbed

i looked up the definition.  i knew what it meant but i wanted to all official-like.  you see, i have a fascination about the word cracked.  little kids giggle because they will say “i see that man’s crack”…and laughter ensues.  but to me, it’s the first definition that gets me.  “broken so that the surface is fissured”.  that’s me (no comment from the people who happen to know number three is me too!!).  just because i may happen to be slightly broken doesn’t mean that i’m damaged.  i happen to like being cracked.  i like how it defines me and makes me stronger.  it doesn’t mean i’m tossed into the heap with other garbage.  it means that i’m fragile and vulnerable.  i think we all are cracked in some way or another.  it’s the inner stuff that keeps us together….holds us strong.  so i’m proud of my cracked surface.  and i’m proud that little by little, i allow others to see my vulnerable state in hopes that they too, will allow me into their world.   i truly feel that if you allow people into your world to see your cracked surface, the stronger you become.  vulnerability doesn’t make you weak, seeing someone’s cracked surface doesn’t make them any less….it makes them beautiful and amazing.  for a long time i didn’t think i was beautiful or amazing but i’m slowly cracking the surface.  and i have my inner bitch to thank for that!  i’ll save my inner bitch speech for another post.

i took this picture not too long ago – i loved how the light came through the crack in the fence.  i stopped because it reminded me of myself…..allowing just enough light to shine through so i don’t blind you.

be good to you.

stacy tarlow


January 27, 2012 - 1:14 pm

jill c. - I LOVE this shot. It’s beautiful. I think you should print it and hang it somewhere.

January 27, 2012 - 1:16 pm

stacy - thanks jill. and you’re right….it definitely should go on a wall.

January 27, 2012 - 7:18 pm

M - LOVE THIS POST. I love your “crack” xoxo

January 28, 2012 - 10:42 am

Rhonda Steed - i love it even more now that I read what you wrote! :)

January 28, 2012 - 11:39 am

Heather - Definitely on the wall. Visual reminder of you and your cracked beauty:) Beautifully deep words, truly.

January 29, 2012 - 7:25 am

Suzie - Yes, you are cracked. That’s why I love you:)

February 2, 2012 - 12:03 am

Heather Moll - love this. the photo is gorgeous and i can relate to your words so much as well.

February 7, 2012 - 5:15 pm

Jacey Taub - I say CRACK IS WHACK!!! ha ha(just like the rhyme) But I LOVE you for saying “that if you allow people into your world to see your cracked surface, the stronger you become. vulnerability doesn’t make you weak” Today, i needed to hear that. xoxo

February 9, 2012 - 2:16 pm

Michelle Barbeau - love your photo and words (and your blog)!

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