1. broken so that the surface is fissured
2. broken into pieces
3. mentally disturbed
i looked up the definition. i knew what it meant but i wanted to all official-like. you see, i have a fascination about the word cracked. little kids giggle because they will say “i see that man’s crack”…and laughter ensues. but to me, it’s the first definition that gets me. “broken so that the surface is fissured”. that’s me (no comment from the people who happen to know number three is me too!!). just because i may happen to be slightly broken doesn’t mean that i’m damaged. i happen to like being cracked. i like how it defines me and makes me stronger. it doesn’t mean i’m tossed into the heap with other garbage. it means that i’m fragile and vulnerable. i think we all are cracked in some way or another. it’s the inner stuff that keeps us together….holds us strong. so i’m proud of my cracked surface. and i’m proud that little by little, i allow others to see my vulnerable state in hopes that they too, will allow me into their world. i truly feel that if you allow people into your world to see your cracked surface, the stronger you become. vulnerability doesn’t make you weak, seeing someone’s cracked surface doesn’t make them any less….it makes them beautiful and amazing. for a long time i didn’t think i was beautiful or amazing but i’m slowly cracking the surface. and i have my inner bitch to thank for that! i’ll save my inner bitch speech for another post.
i took this picture not too long ago – i loved how the light came through the crack in the fence. i stopped because it reminded me of myself…..allowing just enough light to shine through so i don’t blind you.
be good to you.